We shared a hotel room, and as we both got up early, we walked the beach at Waikiki every morning and then Grandma took me to a cafe for breakfast, a different one every day. A lovely heartfelt story, that just goes to show how everyones life is fascinating. Is she dead? I asked, in disbelief, but I knew the answer. It's an anxiety that hangs over all of us. And there are three things that stand out to me as part of her enduring legacy. She loved nice shoes and clothes and was always well turned out. As she put it: she was an optimist, while Harold was more of a realist.. But to me, that was a great picture of who Grandma actually was. We had a very different Christmas this year and I havent been able to post anything, despite having read many books. When I wrote Keep Me In Your Heart: A Fathers Day Wish about the imminent loss of my mother and her father, I had no idea that my mothers battle with Alzheimers disease would end just 8 days later.. Death after Alzheimers disease. We always knew we werent as great as Grandma thought we were; but we hoped we were kinda close. I hope I can be kinda like her when I grow up. But Im fairly sure Grandma Pat would disagree. Queer cripple with a PhD. Thank you so much Pastor Bob. It's something I wasn't able to do for my mother. They said their final goodbye to their only child after watching her struggle with Alzheimers disease for more than 10 years. Shed tell me how smart he was and how much he would have loved me, but I couldnt get her to say anything of substance. Since the doctors were unable to diagnosis exactly what kind of dementia she suffered from, her children and grandchildren had no general timeline to predict her decline. Her life was not easy and I think to be a mother fighting for your familys survival is difficult for your immediate relationships; but even after all that hardship and strife, there was enough softness left inside to give to her granddaughter. When the funeral finally arrived, I felt like it was for everyone else. Grandmas faith was never religious, dutiful, or pious. That is how we will always remember her. I finally found peace after Alzheimers disease. She was an expert in Japanese flower arranging and traveled with a bolt cutter and hatchet which she used to glean good specimens for her arrangements. I cant remember a single time I was around her when she wasnt encouraging, exhorting, or urging me and others toward faith and obedience to Christ. [], [] was pregnant with my second daughter and chasing after a toddler when my mom died. And in her later years, when the more complex aspects of her personality had faded, her joyful faith in Jesus remained. []. When my grandmother died two weeks ago, I was asked to share a short eulogy at the memorial service. She had developed a tendency to remember and talk in loops of repeating information, but we were kind of on the same track. I was desperate to be wild in grief and my coke-snorting bestie was my ticket to fun. Tweets by @ModernLoss Russell wheeled you outside for some fresh air and sunshine, and you smiled and tried to speak to me several times. I felt I was able to reach her in that moment. Eulogy for a Grandmother I'm not sure how you begin to talk about a life that spanned nearly a centurya woman whose time included half a dozen wars, The Great Depression, and 17 different presidents. She knew my face and my name, and she knew that we had always been close, but I suspected that my grandmother no longer remembered what made us close like the many Saturday night sleepovers from my childhood, when wed go to one of her few pre-approved restaurants. But you never know what small, barely noticeable gestures and habits might become your most visible, defining characteristics in the eyes of your children someday. And as you read those words, maybe they'll mean just a little more to you. She showed me much love and kindness. But the truth is that my grandmother had been gone for more than a decade when she took her last breath. With me, she was always kind and patient. They had to start from scratch; my mother remembers a cabin with dirt floors. I would even say theres such a thing as nave optimism. I think it was a chapter of her life that she wanted to forget and erase as much as possible. It was as if my mother had saidbefore I left, Im going home. Theres no filter. For some people, we're here to celebrate "Lou." For others, "Mom." I probably wanted to throttle you and I was taking it out on your heads! We all laughed hard, then noted how long it took for each of us to realize you dont have to shake your head violently to wash your hair. Growing up as a kid with that kind of a grandmother had a way of bestowing confidence, self-worth, and a sense of rootedness. I didnt know I would say goodbye to my mother eight days after I wrote Keep Me In Your Heart: A Fathers Day Wish. With tears in her eyes, she said, We are very special to each other, arent we? We talked about the sleepovers, lunches, and other happy times. By some miracle, this visit included an unusual bright spot of lucidity. She prayed relentlessly for her kids and grandkids and for the people of Murdo. Later as the dementia set in, there were certain moments from her life shed tell repeatedly like the time she got fired from her job for wearing a Roosevelt pin, and the time she walked into a synagogue at the age of 15 and asked to receive an education there even though her family didnt have a membership. Your love for her, your tender descriptions of her, your understanding and compassion for her wartime experiences and your tribute to her character are so beautifully written. Your email address will not be published. By the time my sister Erin and our cousins Christa and Michael came along, she was older and had suffered the loss of my gentle grandfather, Hideo Sugiyama. He told me later that he told her we would all be okay. Your father touched my soul like no one ever has. Life in internment camp was very hard; the sense of being shamed, set apart and treated unfairly was, I think, almost worse. Do you know youre precious? she would ask during every outing together. It was during that drive that I filled pages with notes about my childhood memories of her. Grandma was pretty frail by then and I wasnt sure she even knew who I was. I vividly remember my last good visit with you, about a month before you died, when (my brother) Russell and I came to see you the day before Mothers Day. When I tell people that Grandma Pauline died last year at the age 96, the response is almost always some permutation of You were blessed to have her for so long. That is true in the technical sense. A cheerful heart has a continual feast (Proverbs 15:15). I took them to see her anyway. Im more like my grandfather. Lauren Flake is a wife, girl mom, native Austinite, seventh generation Texan, artist, author, and Alzheimer's daughter. Published on January 13, 2015, How Shane Hawkins and the Foo Fighters United Us in Grief, By Lori Tucker-Sullivan in Features, My Loss. Big hugs from afar,xoHelen, Date: Tue, 7 Jan 2014 22:07:04 +0000 To: helenm_moore@hotmail.com. For the past 10 years, Grandma suffered from dementia and memory loss so I was tempted to rewind the clock and talk about how she really was in her earlier years. [], [] That night, a great peace washed over me. I had no idea the next time I saw you, you would be unconscious on your deathbed. We hosted a memorial service at Western Hills Church of Christ in Austin, Texas. I know how concerned people are about these matters because I hear from them every week. I still dream about her often. She had dementia and wasnt really enjoying life. You should write more about her. I was reading Anne of Green Gables for the first time, and Grandma allowed me to chatter to her nonstop about this landmark book which she hadnt read. I couldnt tell anyone not at Christmas. Design by Bethany Beams, Some Stars Shine: Happy Birthday, Baby Brother, Music in Memory: Country Gospel Funeral Songs , Keep Me In Your Heart: A Fathers Day Wish, Slow Motion: The Alzheimers Grieving Process, Memorial Service Packet Insert Page Dixie Stucky, Knesek Funeral Home Obituary and Guestbook, Where Did My Sweet Grandma Go? He remarked at her graveside that how we live now, going forward, is part of her legacy. Love for Christ. But people dont quite know how to mourn someone whos still technically alive. It was vibrant and living and worshipful. So beautiful Lea. Again, a sensory memory of security became the most indelible legacy of a loving parent. Candid conversation about grief. Thank you for your kind thoughts, I appreciate them. We are hoping to move him into a nursing home closer to my grandmother early next week. Loved reading about how she passed Japanese culture to you. As Grandma lost her memory these last few years, she often mistook my daughter Mio for me; it took her a while sometimes to connect the adult I am now with the child she used to take care of. When words fail, music comes through and pulls us all in. When Id ask about my grandfather, Norman, who died in his late 50s in a plane crash on his way to Japan, shed remind me that I was named after him. She fixed my hair with gentle hands. But the truth is that my grandmother had been gone for more than a decade when she took her last breath. [], [] didnt really get to know Karen until after my mom passed in June 2013. She was always and forever an influencer. What a beautiful piece of writing and a wonderful tribute to an obviously amazing person. Wow,so touching and I cant stop reading. As a child, he always associated the clippety-clop sound of her approaching shoes with a sense of comfort, a sign of someone coming to provide care and security. The Japanese expression shoganai means something like it cant be helped; its a verbal shrug and is often invoked to describe a traditional resignation and acceptance of fate, an attitude in Japanese culture which allowed them to move on with their lives. That tells me the depths of her distress about her experience. It isn't high-tech at all. Before my grandma died, Id get a hardened, stoic sensation when Id think about her. Mothers Day is a difficult time for my grandma and myself, since losing my mom to early onset Alzheimers disease four years ago. And then I wrote her eulogy. Your email address will not be published. It was about the kind of person you were and the difference you made in the lives of others. : A Preschoolers Guide to Losing a Loved One, Where Did My Sweet Grandpa Go? I will continue to write this column every week, because it's important to put this information in front of people, and to keep it in front of them. By Nina Badzin When I tell people that Grandma Pauline died last year at the age 96, the response is almost always some permutation of "You were blessed to have her for so long." That is true in the technical sense. Dementia stole my grandmother long ago, leaving me to mourn her all over again when she died years later. But know Im thinking of you and thanks so much for sharing. When I logged onto Zoom to lead a session on friendship, my true love was waiting in the grid. I believe that I enjoyed a tenderness from her that her own daughters perhaps did not get; she was dedicated to protecting them, and her war experiences made her fierce in her protectiveness. But finding a way to act friendly and cheerful and talkative with the woman who still looked like my grandma required me to put my memories of her pre-dementia identity on hold. : A Preschoolers Guide to Losing A Loved One. For those of you who dont know me, my given name is Robert Harold Thune or Bobby, as my grandmother called me for my entire life. But if she lost them, then I can only hope that she lost, too, the bitter memories of wartime and the hard years of struggle afterwards. I didnt really take time to grieve, and, to be honest, I thought I had already finished [], [] in Rockport on the Texas coast. The next day, Saturday, June 22, 2013, I walked into her room with my dad. That morning, however, my grandfather regained full consciousness. But this is my news, and my eulogy for my Grandma. She had a sense of the ridiculous and was always ready to laugh over anything silly. Required fields are marked *. She entered hospice care when I was pregnant with my first daughter and passed away, almost two years later, when I was pregnant with my second daughter. As a beneficiary of that love and of Grandmas legacy, I am grateful. But then I realized that would be exactly the wrong approach. Now go home and take care of your babies. !function(d,s,id){var js,fjs=d.getElementsByTagName(s)[0],p=/^http:/.test(d.location)? It felt inappropriate to mourn Grandma Pauline, while she was still with us at least in the literal sense, but the spirit of her was so far away. In a way, I'm still writing it. She finally found peace after Alzheimers disease. He is writing a memoir on gender and parenting. Shed experienced a bad fall, and Id come to see her at the hospital. Tagged as eulogy, Japanese Canadian internment, What a stunning and moving tribute to your grandmother. I was constantly racking my brain, trying to figure out what or whom she was waiting on. It wasnt until after she died that I was able to honor the memories she would have wanted me to keep, the vibrant ones, the ones unfettered by repetitive questions and painful moments of outright confusion. And so on this day, as we honor Pat Thunes life and legacy, I find myself thankful for and challenged by her cheerful optimism, her sanctified pride, and her genuine love for Christ. My mother certainly got an A ++ in this. On New Years Day she would make a special meal for everyone, with futomaki and the inevitable chow mein that is de rigeur at every Japanese Canadian family meal. Beautiful. This hits me close to home as my own grandmother recently passed away after suffering with dementia for a decade or so. I just lost her 1st of january 2016. The disease made the last few years especially painful, but she lived to age 85 and led a full life. We honored my mother, Dixie Benton Stucky (1953-2013), on Saturday, June 29, 2013. When I was 9 our family took a trip to Hawaii and Grandma came along. Perhaps the only silver lining was that the diseases slow progression gave my five siblings and me time to process her death, reflect on her life, and arrange an appropriate memorial service. You Might Have the Better Claim But I Have the Bigger Army. From what you said, shes more like my grand ma. My 83-year-old mother has dementia. We will cherish each sweet moment together. Ive edited it a bit because I wrote it to read out: My grandmother, Susan Sugiyama, was a woman I would like to honor today with my memories of her. I remember staring at the casket spray, made by my amazing friend Terri, through much of the memorial service. 1. Eulogy for Ellen, My Mother. The words of the Bible rolled off her tongue with ease. What you see is what you get. With the outbreak of war with Japan, like others in the Japanese Canadian community she was sent with her father, her mother and her younger brother Sid, to a prison camp for the duration of the war. She had a fall on the 20th of December that fractured her pelvis and back, and she was in hospital. I started reading your eulogy when you sent it, but read it today thoroughly. Now He's Grieving Alongside Millions. She's gone. Find NJ.com on Facebook. If you want to chat, I am here. Saying goodbye to my mother. Thank you. Ill try to post on those later. Writer. 'http':'https';if(!d.getElementById(id)){js=d.createElement(s);js.id=id;js.src=p+"://platform.twitter.com/widgets.js";fjs.parentNode.insertBefore(js,fjs);}}(document,"script","twitter-wjs"); Privacy Policy Terms of Service RSS Feed Contact Us Donate, 2013-2022 Modern LossTM, LLC. But dementia doesn't care. It has been a difficult summer for my grandparents. Her battle was over. By Bob Thune Archives The grieving process is a long one, and never truly over, but hope your memories are helping to ease the sadness. I was lucky enough to be the only grandchild with whom she had a close relationship. Our last conversation was about Japan. document.getElementById( "ak_js_1" ).setAttribute( "value", ( new Date() ).getTime() ); On March 29, 2022, I was invited by Senator John Thune to be the guest chaplain for the U.S. Senate,, In the past week, its suddenly become commonly accepted wisdom that congregational singing is, Click to share on Facebook (Opens in new window), Click to share on Twitter (Opens in new window), Click to email a link to a friend (Opens in new window), Protect Your Kids: How to Install an Internet Filter, Healthcare: Why Both Parties Are Missing the Point, A Historic Day: What Brexit Tells Us About Culture. We are so happy with his improvement, despite his spinal injury. Another blogger I follow also unfortunately lost her Grandma. After my mom died, I discovered a world of new meaning in my favorite color. The reason is that my mothers mother, my Grandma Sugiyama, passed away on Christmas Eve. In the last few years of Grandma Paulines life, my older two kids, around 6 and 8 at the time, were confused about why we had to make time to see her. Who Grandma was in her final years is who she really was. All rights reserved. Its difficult today to fully comprehend the pain of this experience, and how it affected our community. Tags: Dementia, Grandparent Loss, It's Complicated Most of the other stories fell away to the point where I couldnt remember them either. He has continued to improve and was out of bed and walking today! Then we held a graveside service later that day at Sealy Cemetery in Sealy, Texas. And now that I can only reach back through the memories, I promise to share the best ones I have with my children and, God-willing, with my grandchildren and great-grandchildren. But then I realized that winding back the clock would be exactly the wrong thing to do on a day like this. They did manage to avoid the holding pens of the Exhibition grounds where so many were forced to live in horse stalls; on arrival they lost themselves in the crowds and fled to Steveston where they took refuge with their friends the Arakis before the inevitable removal by train to the interior. Jag har aldrig slutat att grta fr allt han har gtt misste om. They say that ones deep childhood memories are the last to leave a brain invaded by Alzheimers, in part because they are literally embodied in ones skin and bones. m_gallery_title = "Dementia cruelly, methodically took my mother\'s life"; Nicknames For Harley Girl, She grew up in Deep Bay, on Vancouver Island, where her father was a fisherman, ranging as far as the Alaskan Panhandle on his small boat. Such a nice eulogy to a lovely grandmother. [], [] After awaiting your passing and the end of your suffering for so long, I had no idea I would miss visiting you so much, even though you couldnt respond to me. By Tullan Holmqvist in My Loss, Personal Essays. A lot of the Japanese culture that I retain, as a fourth-generation Japanese Canadian, came from her. So I go after dementia the way it went after my mother -- relentlessly, clinically, unrepentantly. I told my husband I feel like when I hold her hand, Im asking her to stay with me. For some reason, I knew that she would let go when no one was watching her; I felt she wanted it that way. While you are, subscribe to our spam-free newsletter. Just five weeks after my mothers passing, my 90-year-old grandfather fell and broke one of the vertebrae in his neck. Well, she lived 94 years so you know Grandma didnt waste rice. I am the oldest of Harold and Pat Thunes 13 grandchildren, and it is a privilege for me to represent them today by offering a few reflections on Pats life. After grandpa died, Grandma began to travel and explore the world. I didnt hear my grandmother say shoganai. She didnt speak of the internment at all to me. I also remember my husband sitting by her side talking to her for several minutes. Do you know youre loved?. By Nina Badzin. Thank you for reading the post. By Cynthia Rodriguez in My Loss, Personal Essays. Thinking of you, my dear friend. Because there were so many of us, we grew up in a noisy family. It seems almost everyone I talk to has lost a parent or grandparent to Alzheimer's, or is currently dealing with it in their extended family. Grandma was born in 1919, in Steveston. We visited her in hospital and I showed her pictures of my familys trip there in October and she reminisced about her last trip. And many of us here today are the fruit of those prayers. My husband and I arranged a sitter to stay home with our younger two kids, then picked up our older two from school and left Minneapolis our funeral clothes in tow that afternoon. Ironically, it seems fitting that such body memories ended up dominating a eulogy for someone who died of Alzheimers disease. One year at a family event, my siblings and I started reminiscing about this practice. I had already spent so many years grieving and honoring the memory of my mother and best friend. I believe wherever she is now she will be smiling reading this about her self. When you ask Americans over the age of 60 what health threat they fear the most, overwhelmingly they say Alzheimer's. The Riparian Times is a boutique publication with musings about life, travel, fashion and art. A friend of my mothers for 40 years, Stuart Platt, delivered my mothers eulogy at her funeral and also spoke at her graveside service. After being at the nursing home, watching and waiting, that Tuesday through Thursday, I stayed home all day Friday. My grandmother spent one winter living on potatoes, taking shelter in a tent. She's her old self again, happy and vibrant and sharp as a whip. From Lillooet she moved with her family to Kamloops, where she met my grandfather, and they married in 1944. These memories of our time together I hope she retained. Heres what I mean: dementia reveals the true essence of a person. She stopped going to her film class; she quit her book club; she lost interest in seeing friends. It strips away the layers of etiquette and social pretense that most of us have learned to operate with. I can see so much of your mom and dad in you and that is superb. A beauty blog full of makeup, reviews & more, Experiencing Toronto through the eyes of a surburbanite. How lovely that you had such a long relationship with her and she was able to pass on so much of herself to other generations. : A Preschoolers Guide to Losing a Loved One, Keep Me In Your Heart: A Fathers Day Wish, My mother found peace after Alzheimers disease, Slow Motion: The Alzheimers Grieving Process, Memorial Service Packet Insert Page Dixie Stucky, Knesek Funeral Home Obituary and Guestbook. Grandma and Grandpa set up a corner store in east Vancouver, which they kept open long hours. They worked hard and their daughters had good educations. By the time Grandma Pauline was in her late 70s, her mind was already beginning to fail. Wish I could have been there at the funeral. During the night on the 23rd of December she suffered a stroke that left her non-responsive on the 24th, and that afternoon she died. To this day, coconut syrup and guava juice means Waikiki Breakfast with Grandma. He died in 1977 of a respiratory disease, shortly after the birth of my sister Erin. [NBC News], We Cant Comprehend This Much Sorrow [NY Times], The Familial Language of Black Grief [The Atlantic]. (You take the good, you take the bad.) I will always remember how you prompted me to seek out help when I was grieving, and I would be happy to be there for you too, if that is what you need (now or in the future). Because I didn't know. Thank you. "Since 2014, when the clinic was founded, it's been OK to say 'Alzheimer's disease' and 'prevention' in the same sentence.". I just read the eulogy. She took me to church with her, to the Japanese United Church on Victoria Drive, where I met other children with similar backgrounds, and ate homemade udon noodles at the church bazaars. We were all sitting around the table and Grandma kept breaking into song the same song over and over again. There are no lessons about 'The Art of Mothering' we can only do our best and hope that we do it well. I never heard a word of bitterness or complaint from her. Men nr jag passerade ldern d han dog, ndrades ngot. Taylor Hawkins' son poured everything into each slam of the sticks. What a life she had and what a blessing she was to you and you to her. Grandmas love for the Lord Jesus was never personal or private, as many in our modern liberal culture would like to keep it. The good memories, the meaningful memories that we have of Pat are of her younger, more vivacious years. Two Pleasers In A Relationship, Even though she was not physically demonstrative, we shared hugs and held hands when we walked around Honolulu. As a young woman, she came to Vancouver, to attend sewing school. 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March 22, 2012December 11, 2012. So to me, she was an indulgent and fond grandmother. I wish I had known to write down the details of her life while she was still sharing them during those sleepovers and lunches. Life is too short to dwell on the painful memories but long enough to rebuild as your grandmother did. When I launched this column, I promised myself that once a year, on the anniversary of her death, I would devote the column to her memory. Tony Dearing may be reached at tdearing@njadvancemedia.com. Grandma never heard my dad preach a mediocre sermon; 3. The last time I saw my grandmother was in April 2013, about nine months before she died. People didnt deliver meals or flowers. It helped me maintain my connection to my mother while she was still alive and also helped me to say goodbye and honor her memory when she passed. Then we held a graveside service later that day at Sealy Cemetery in Sealy, Texas. I think that it would have been easy to sink into depression after the internment, or to be consumed with resentment and bitterness. She taught me a Japanese childrens song; although I couldnt understand the words, I loved singing with her. May her soul rest in peace Amen. Jet Diver Vs Dipsy Diver, The other 80 percent of preventing Alzheimer's is well within our control, based on how well we eat, how often we exercise, how much stimulation we give our mind and how socially active and spiritually replenished we keep ourselves. They had never seen me sob, and they couldnt grasp what was so sad about losing a person who barely remembered me. If you ask my four kids about their memory of Grandma, theyll likely talk about Thanksgiving 2 years ago. I stopped in my tracks as soon as I saw her, waiting for her to breathe. I spent the rest of that week scanning photos of my beautiful mother and finalizing details for her funeral services. 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